Well... that last load of stuff that I wrote wasn't longer than what I have been writing in the past. More than likely it was shorter than most of what I have written in the past.

This time I am not going to say whether I hope this is longer or not.

I am going to Sarah-Louise's house tomorrow because it is half term. Not entirely sure whether I want to go. Not because I hate Sarah-Louise or anything, just because I feel so terribly low and depressed at the moment. To be honest, I cannot see any point in life any more. I have felt like constantly crying for the past few days now and it is terrible. I hate feeling like this. It has got to the point that I don't wish to go on, I just want to give up. The worst thing about it is that I do not know what I can do to change these feelings. I want to change them, I hate them, I just don't know how.

The last couple of entries that I have made have been terriblly short, so hopefully this one will be longer.

I am ill again *sigh*. Sometimes it feels like that is all I ever am. People at college (teachers and stuff) seem to be getting mad at me for being away at all the time, but I can't help it. I try my best not to be ill.

I was thinking the other day about dropping out of college, but then I thought "what exactly would I do instead?". That I couldn't answer.